Dear Family,
Many of you know that I am an adventurer at heart. I love exploring new places, meeting new people, experiencing life and in the process, discovering who I am. And yet, seeking new adventures often takes me away from home and from family.
Four years ago, my ambitious drive and independent nature sent me searching for something beyond the neighborhoods of Roy, Utah. I quickly became involved in a community at Linfield and submerged myself in my newfound independence. I found mentors and friends, and I slowly built a community for myself. I thrived in an environment of learning and exposure to new ways of thinking, living and being. All strikingly different and comfortably similar to my life in Utah.
I tried my best to update you about my classes, friends, work and life. It was hard, and sometimes I didn’t do a good job. Although I loved my life, I still missed home and all of you. During my last year at Linfield the question that weighed heavy on my mind was if I would I return to Utah after school.
My decision to stay in Oregon, at least for another year, depended a great deal on finding a job. Although I am still not sure what I want to do with my life, I do know this:
I want to be able to live in a city and experience a city life. I am tired and burned out from school. I want to take control of my life and have the ability to do what I want without worrying about homework, exams or papers. I want to read for pleasure again. To pursue hobbies and volunteer work. To continue educating myself on topics that I am interested in.
Last semester, I became interested in library science. All of you know my love for books, but I have always loved libraries and being among that environment. Yet, I could list a million other things I would like to try or pursue. I don’t expect to have the same job, or even a job in the same industry, for the rest of my working life. I imagine I will try many things and learn a lot in the process. I can’t tell you that the library world is something I want to do for the rest of my working career, but I will never know unless I experience it. Which is why my job at Oregon Episcopal School is the right fit for me at this time in my life.
In the past four years, I struggled; I succeeded. I cried; I laughed. I made mistakes; I learned from them. I grew up.
It may seem like I have chosen one world over another. I haven’t. Nothing is ever that simple. But I think what keeps me following my heart – as stretched as it sometimes feels – is that I know, no matter where I go or what I do, I will always have a group of people supporting me and loving me, even if it is from a distance.
Thank you.